Feeling complete

It is three in the morning and I never usually wake up at this time. I hear a noise - a noise in my head The clutter, the suffocation, the feeling of breathlessness I know I want to get over this I wish I was asleep like other days and would have suppressed these thoughts But how long will I be able to let the thoughts sleep over me? So instead I decide to talk about it and kill it forever Interesting how life has taken different turns at times when it seemed most stable Does that necessarily mean that life wont be stable again? No, too easy to accept defeat than to withstand. So, I decide to laugh on the face of my past Here I am standing upright in my present and looking ahead at my future with a wide smile. Appears to be a difficult walk? No, it has gotten easier now. How? Because I am ready for the next challenge Recalling the happy moments and the lovely people I got in life I am happy as much I am sad! I forgive and that gives me strength!

The Tourist

The birds were chirping, the zephyr touched my eyelids gently and moved on. The children were giggling while they passed by. I was sitting alone, enjoying my own company. I had seen a few years of this life and I wondered why people complain about their life. Life seemed so beautiful. While I sat at my doorstep every evening, I came to recognise the faces of the passerby people. And notably this particular chap who appeared starkingly attractive. All the more because when he crossed me, he had his eyes glued on me and I would get lost in those eyes as well. The guy became regular to the road. One fine day, he greeted me with a "hi" and I responded with a smile. Next day he stood there a few minutes to chat about my whereabouts. Gradually the stay kept on increasing and we became friends. I liked his company. Now, I did not notice the birds anymore, nor the children passing by. I waited for him to arrive and spend some time together. We started taking small strolls to the nearby park. And everyday I started feeling low when I had to bid him goodbye. He said he liked spending time with me. As time passed by our meetings became a necessity for the both of us. We promised each other to walk together everyday. Then we promised to stand by each other in our sorrows and our happiness. He promised to be with me forever very soon. One day he told me he will be a little late the next day. So I waited for him the next day. When he arrived with his attractive smiling face I felt such relief. We walked a little and talked a little more. The next day he again arrived late. This time he did not inform me so I was a bit worried. The subsequent day as well he came late and this time quite late. So I expressed my worries to him. He said, he might be late but he will come back to me at the end of the day. So I was assured. One day he did not come but I kept reassuring myself of his presence. I knew he will come and gave me the assurance that he will always be there for me. Then his visits became less frequent and his absence . started making me sad and I craved to see him. At his next visit, I asked him the reason for this behaviour but he seemed indifferent. When I pushed him too hard, he said, he has to go. I tried to stop him but he did not stay. The last words he uttered were, I am sorry. Now I know why people complain. Cest La Vie!

A Birthday

A small wish unspoken, a feeling not expressed
A small dream unexplored, a life not lived...
Today you are ready to explore the world with a new beginning...
A change so subtle, a life still green
The sun drowns us in its shade
All awaits us to be out there to live, to explore and to play...
Today you are one year younger in heart...
A world so crowded, the streets so loud
Striving to survive beyond salvation
I am here to stay with you in this lane
So today I’ll make a promise and stay...
Kaush

Small Wishes multiplied by Dreams

Give me a childhood where no one ever scolded
Give me a youth age such that my principles were tightly held
Give me a world where everybody is my friend
Give me an enmity where there is no end
Give me a teacher who had nothing to take back from me
Give me a student who will always obey me

Give me a house to live in where no one ever died
Give me a family to be with such that no one ever cried
Give me a trust so true that I will never ever regret

If you can't give me any of these then,
Give me a life so happy that I had never lost someone dear...

Love- an Old Wine

Few decades from now when you sit at your doorstep and see the passer-by couple
And think who had ever cared for you so much and promised will do till today
There won’t be anybody to answer, there won’t be anybody to say
That there was a girl who does that till today
Wherever she is, whatever she does, she still cries out your name when in pain
She misses you the most when she has to celebrate
Because what stops her from being with you is her fate
She was the one who saw your soul as the only pair for her own
She gracefully accepted all your sins and gave them her own name
She never wanted a thing from you just the assurance that you will remain....

Kaush

An Afternoon with you...

I was walking down the street on a lonely afternoon. The road was shaded by trees consisting of subtle green leaves. The smell of the wet grass somewhere nearby scintillated my senses. The sunrays sneaking in between two leaves played hide seek with my emotions. The closeness to nature made me happy for no other reason. My heart sang the song of life and my dreams started creeping up as if the Lord has granted them all. Suddenly an obscure thought came into my mind- How long am I going to walk all alone and try to rejoice just my survival in the world. Will I die one day just having known one life?? Only then the leaves started brushing against each other unanimously with the wind blowing wildly, my dreams started going wild too, the sky started growing dark with the clouds creeping in ....... & it poured........ I tried to find a shade to avoid the touch of raindrops but no matter how hard I tried to find a perfect shade I failed to do so... After sometime the rain slowed down and the clouds started moving towards their home, it stopped pouring, the sun came in and I came out of my shade... I realised a few tiny droplets of tear in the corner of my eyes but couldn't figure out the reason for the same. I started walking back towards my home with a sad heart as if a beast had come and taken away all my gifts... Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder which sent in an impulsive action of me turning back and hugging you tight... The warmth of your arms took away all my pains and absorbed me and my fears. It was a gift God had sent to me.......
Kaush

I am a human that is why...

I fall I cry, I rise I fly
I am a human that is why...

I mistake it with success and crave for a smile
That is the reason and that is the cause
Why I waited to be happy all this while
I know not what holds me
I know not what scares me
To smile when it is all dark
To enjoy my rise but cherish my fall
I know not the reason
I am a human that is why...

I loathe subsiding in the gloominess of lives
Yet I do so as a habit since unknown
I wish to traverse the journey with long successful jives
I know not what throws me
I know not what tells me
To shed tears when I am hurt
To fly when I rise but cry when I fall
I know not the reason
I am a human that is why...

- Kaush